Gone to Soon

Today I received word that a classmate of mine lost his battle with cancer. He was diagnosed in December 2007 and put up a brave fight. His name was Nate Trask. Back in the days of good ol' MHS, we knew him as Nat. He was a tall guy...a great athlete and a Christian. Today he leaves behind a wife, two young children (twins), a lot of family and many many friends. Perhaps the most important thing he left behind was his statement of faith. I truly believe that Nate is walking along side our Father in Heaven. While I'm sad that he has left us, I'm envious that he is dancing with Jesus. RIP Nate...you will be missed but never forgotten!

Living in our "Now"

This is my first attempt to get a blog entry made into this new blog. I created a blog a couple of years ago but found that I never was able to keep up with. I may be underestimating myself, but at this point in time I don't fancy that Iwill be able to keep this one up either.

The title of my blog comes from the fact that I seem to live more in the "someday" than the "now". Why is that? Why can't I just be happy where I'm at? Here's just a small list of my "somedays":

• Someday I'll marry a man who loves me (check this off the list as of 10/4/08)
• Someday I'll lose enough weight and feel really comfortable in my body. As of now, I'm at my heaviest weight ever and am actually quite disgusted with myself.
• Someday we'll have a house that we like. I moved in with my husband before we were ever married. It was a house that he had lived in with his dad and purchased it when his dad moved back to Texas. Now he absolutely hates it, and no matter what I do I can't seem to "turn it into a home" for him. Is he just being ungrateful. On a more serious note, I too would like for us to find a home together. We both have our minds set on a ranch style home with walkout basement. Right now we live in a bi-level so that could part of the reasoning behind our "desire".
• Someday we'll have enough money that we won't have any debt. Hmmmm...well, first of all we had a wedding and we're finishing paying that. We also have my smile makeover, which I am forever grateful for but still dread the bill that comes with it. And, debt just keeps adding up and up. Unlike my husband, I do believe we will be taken care of. He, on the other hand, would just as soon win the lottery.
  
  And, perhaps the biggest "SOMEDAY" is:
• Someday I'd like to be a mommy. I've had this dream since I was very little. I used to play with my dollies and mimic my mommy when I was a very young girl. I always knew in my heart of hearts that I wanted children of my own someday. I'm 33 now and it still hasn't happened. We're currently trying to conceive, and I am hoping and praying that we will be blessed. Why would God put such a strong desire in my heart if it weren't meant to come true? Can anyone answer that question? I will say that I am lucky to have four furry children: 2 cats-Archie and Sophie and 2 dogs- Brandie and Autumn. Our house is full of furry love right now. We're just waiting to add to the mix!

I'm sure I could go on and on making a list, but I don't want to continue to sound ungrateful for the things I do have. I have a loving husband, four furry children, a roof over my head, and a job that provides. I also know that God is the protector of it all. Where is my faith? Where is my Hope? These things I put down at the feet of my Heavenly Father. I know that our "someday" will be "now". But, for now I will live in this current "someday" for it is my "now".